disappointment is e word..complete loss of faith in the gdness of pple was e feeling i had.. e camaraderie tt i tot was so strong could actually juz snap within seconds once money was brought into the picture

perhaps i'm being too harsh here..i can;t force pple 2 accept the way i tink and the way my mind works..wat i feel is ok need not translate into ease for others..tt's wat my logical mind is telling me but of cos tt's wat i feel and accept.. which explains my sudden outburst earlier on.

i was shocked at my actions..e action of letting my tears juz flow over a stupid trivial matter, is in my opinion, a form of weakness. since when had i let matters affect me?i tot i was like heck care e s***

wateva. i tink it's e effect of my medicine..tink i vaguely remember the dr telling me tt side effects will include giddyness and mood flutuations..or was e mood fluctuations part for acutine? i can't rem..

i believe tt if u treat pple well they will do e same to u too..apparently not..n i hafta live till 20 yrs old till i experience dis.
e matter is resolved now..not tt i wanna dwell on it but i felt tt i was affected greatly by dis. it made me tink a lot..

i miss e age of innocence.

i sound negative, but it's a reflection of my mood now.

wat has happened is partly my fault, so i shdn't blame others for the result..nevertheless, i'm still disappointed..

the ideal notion juz can't fit into reality.. we're too far from achieving it..tt's all i can say

to pple who're worried after reading dis post, dun worry, i'm fine. i was juz exasperated n really feeling so full of s*** juz now.. but i've bounced back!i mean since when do i dwell on it for like super long?even when i got 0 for dis test i din blink an eye..nowadays..i dun give a s*** wat happens..wateva