was reading pple's blogs...not on my list of frequent reading cos i dun haf e url on my blog..well was supposed 2 go ecp 2dae but it rained n my plans were spoilt so i rotted at home instead.

i like gg out alone..haven't done tt in a while..some pple tink i'm nuts but den i enjoy e freedom of looking at wateva i like for how long i wan w/o worrying tt whoever is w me will b bored of wat i m looking at...even if w reassurance tt they wun b bored..i'll still speed things up n juz take a glance n go-w e intention of coming back another day 2 take a closer look.n maybe oso cos when u go out alone u can juz focus on looking cos there's nobody 2 tok 2 u...can haf some peace n quiet?!hmmm anti social me acting up again

cos i was online n i dun haf anything 2 surf so i was reading my frens' blogs..

in comparison i tink tt my tots r so much more naive n tt my mental age really lags behing my actual age..i dun tink i haf e thoughts or actions of behaviour of a 20 yr old.well there's certain pros n cons abt dis of cos...2 say it in an optimistic manner it would b tt bcos i dun tink so much i haf less troubles n tt i haf a much more carefree life..but 2 say it in a realistic manner it would b cos i ignore certain things or juz throw em at e back of my mind or tt i juz dun engage myself in tinking...hmmm but i dun like 2 tink la..all my frens noe tt..

tink tt wateva tt i m tinking now is really q stupid n dumb...how come can spend so much time n effort juz tinking of such things n getting irritated or bothered or upset or pissed over silly stuf?!??? crazy...shd juz wake up my ideas n start doing sth more meaningful n start acting like a 20yr old!

come 2 tink of it its' q sad cos it's sth like a brainless person leading e same type of life over n over again n not using e brains... ?????

perhaps is cos i've been reading abt some not v happy stuf on my frens' blogs n their tots jolt me back 2 reality..things tt i dun tink abt pop up in their blogs n i c diff pple's views on a certain topic.interesting u noe...e things tt they write abt..n i tink they all make sense...

haha i feel like i'm a little sheltered flower in a greenhouse,not exposed 2 any potential hazards..by choice..cos i m too lazy or can't b bothered to explore out of my comfort zone. it's more of e heck care attitude..not cos of e laziness?!

i dunno wat i'm writing.. ???? tink tt beneath all e fun i m having in life sometimes when u spend some time alone 2 tink n rest a while..inevitably u'll still feel a void..when u take a breather from all e activities n blah...juz feel like blank lor..hmmm

reading my frens' blogs n seeing their faces in e fotos bring me back 2 my sec skool times n e fun we used 2 haf.saw jin tt day at ecp when i was blading n it's like damn happy 2 c her lor!ah haha...together w jean who was learning blading..was reading some of my 408 frens' blogs juz now.i miss em a lot but i tink when maybe we meet up i'm scared got not much 2 tok abt..i haven't seen all of em in a million yrs!frm fang's blog link to jin to jane to trini to mel to chong to chia n blah blah blah..neva read their blogs in my whole life except for fang's...up till now i'm still v amazed tt how come our class could get along q well despite e obvious differences in all of us!e activities we engage in as well as our mentality-SOOOO different!but den i'm really v thankful tt i was in 408 n had such a great time...it really made a difference in my life at rg!maybe it wouldn't haf been so fun if i weren't in 408?!haha!

looking back, i'm really thankful tt i've always had v gd company ard me thru'out my life.not exposed 2 e baddies in e world..living in my happy little utopian idealistic world :) hmmm e naive me is acting up again!

vivid memories frm pri skool include holding hands as instructed by e tcher w a classmate of e opp sex n is ur partner for e whole yr n my partner always like make fun of me or squeeze my hand v tightly or wateva crap!shall not mention e name here but we've been classmates since py n all e way till p6!wah haha...n he use rubberbands n shot erasers + staples at me n i tink i purposely cried so tt he was dragged to e principle's office n caned rite in front of me!OMG i really din tink it would end up so serious n i felt really bad after tt... :( oops now u all noe e mean streak in me!

memories frm sec skool r like aplenty but i guess if not for e setback i encountered in sec 2, i prolly would still b q soft spoken so e experience juz forced me 2 speak up.everything happens for a reason..i'm incoherent..speaking in dribs n drabs so i guess u all prolly dunno wth i m tokking abt..glad tt i made e choice..it was n will always b e most wholesome education i had in my whole life!opened me 2 a variety of stuf n i esp appreciated e aesthetics programme n e after exam activities-i mean, dance lessons n music lessons!speech n drama n philosophy?!D&T n home econs haha..n aerobics class n watnot after exams...tho last time i tot tt some were super bo liao but when i look back at it now..i really appreciate e skool weaving em into our curriculum!cos i tink altho i was complaining, i actually enjoyed it a lot!

i miss doing e finger thing w chia i miss queueing up for super long juz to eat cai4 fan4 i miss rotting in e canteen n juz talking n talking abt a whole lot of things under e sun...

thanx a lot to 102,206, 308/408! :)

i guess diff crowds engage in diff activities..my mind has gone downhill over e yrs..i can't even express myself properly nowadays..my vocab sux..

n of cos in jc tho i hated e 1st 3 mths,slowly e pple whom i dislike became v gd frens haha!amazingly..impressions change 180 degrees!luckily for em jc was sort of a breeze n fun-filled...cos we can always discuss work together or juz go mad-i'll forever rem e bottle turning game man!px u nut!threaten me!mua haha!n we actually so onz until go n buy bubbles n blow for national day celebrations!but v fun! :) v glad tt i m still having a lot of madness w hl px ll tl n vonne!n of cos 01s32 pple! :) i sometimes wonder if our class were more bonded,we'll def b a blast!n jc would b even more fun den it already was!omg can u imagine?!*hiaks*

uni totally change my impressions of orientation n i tink i've become even more onz now!which gerrie can testify 2 haha!really glad tt i've found a whole big bunch of pple in my fac who r v nice n v fun n v generous w wateva they haf-they're not selfish..v impt..thanx a lot to selines n cn7! :)
tho i'm on e path 2 insanity, u guys made it fun for me at least! :) hahahaha all e crap-sters!

ritey i better stop man..sounds like some old hag reminscing(c my el sux i can't spell) on her past! :P