feeling that i'm detached from wateva i do, that i'm not putting 100% of my attention into anything i do

it's as if my mind has a mind of its own

n i'm reminded of a phrase in joy luck club (i tink) :

you look but you do not see
you hear but you do not listen

n i want to lead a life intentionally and not incidentally but tt's a tad hard to accomplish given my current state of life/mind.

i feel like i'm juz waiting n waiting for this stage of life to go past

n i realised how animals can make u feel better n happier cos when my aunt's doggies were still here i was q happy cos they're so cute n u can stroke em n play w em but now tt they've gone home there seems to be a void.
i want to adopt a pet,it seems that animals r e only creatures that can give u it's 100% undivided attention :)

on a lighter note, today's entertainment show w xiao zhu and big S was really funny cos they had artistes to sing based on the theme 'Just HIGH!' so all e lightsticks and white gloves n whistles were used n they were like trying to get e audience to become high!damn funny haha!