finally got stuf settled..n i realise tt dis fren is impt to me so i wun wanna lose my fren juz cos of miscommunication..

tink my mother was so scared when she heard me talking to my fren..juz now she asked me y i quarrel w my fren!haha but at dis age..we dun quarrel already..tt's so immature..if it's anything, it's juz lack of communication n prolly more den juz those pri skool like quarrels.i mean we're 20 already..no pt in quarrelling!

yup..not to say tt i agree w wat my fren has done..in fact i m totally against it..but i respect my fren's tinking n point of view..in e 1st place diff pple haf diff perceptions n everyone's entitled to their own tinking, even if e rest of e world doesn't agree w it. but i feel tt if there's really room for improvement den we shd all try to make ourselves better pple (was talking to fang n she told me tt which i tot is v true)..n not try to make excuses for urself n b in a haste to defend urself. of cos it's in human nature to wanna protect emselves..but tink abt it for a moment: if e person doesn;t care abt u,they wun even b bothered to waste breath telling u criticisims. so take it in ur stride n in a positive manner :)

even if i do not agree w my fren's actions, i haf stated my pt of view n juz hope for e better..but i wun juz reject my fren juz cos we haf diff views..we tolerate n try to c our fren's views from their pt of view..else y do u call em frens?u mite as well juz call em acquaintances!

i dun believe in suffering in silence or juz being leaving problems as they are..i tink gg to rg has made me a more vocal person n more daring to express my views.i thank my lucky stars tt i went there..cos she has moulded me totally..n changed me for e better..made me open up, made me more brave to juz say wat i wanna say but w tact,made me a stronger person..when i look back at e supposed trials tt i went thru in sec skool,it's really a blessing in disguise, cos it's only thru den tt i really was forced to open up n b more indpt n stronger as a whole.wat crap..crying for a whole term at tt time?!i'm amazed at how weak i was haha!n in e process i gained many gd frens who really mean a lot to me even now!w/o em life would b diff :)

do i look weak?apparently my fren tot i was fragile n frail n blah but NO I MUZ SAY TT I M NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!maybe i will falter a bit if e workload gets too much for me to handle n hence e depression mid sem.but emotionally..i've steeled myself a lil more i tink.

perceptions haf been changed ever since i stepped into uni..i'm not e same as i was in pre uni days..prolly matured..threshold for stuf in general is higher (except pple who talk in lecture CAN U PLS JUZ SHUT UP IF U'RE SO SMART GET OUT OF E LT N DISCUSS OUTSIDE!DUMB PPLE LIKE ME NEED TO LISTEN)...handling human relationships better..warming up to strangers faster..but mainly, my perceptions towards a lot of things has been changed. it can b viewed as good or bad but i would like to tink tt any new perception learnt would b gd,cos i haf a new pt of view..not juz restricted to my own narrow thinking.

my threshold towards dis fren is exceptionally high i muz say..i m amazed at myself man haha!yup so e level of importance is oso proportionately high too!i m glad tt despite dis crap course i m in, i haf made many gd frens in chem eng who r willing to support me thru dis crap..even when they find it tough to float they make sure tt i dun drown n watch out for me..thank gdness for em..i feel tt i'm v lucky to meet such nice n helpful pple who will sometimes go out of their way juz to help me n oso make me feel so touched at times w sweet lil surprises or juz some nice stuf tt they do!THANX SO MUCH!HUGS!

i'm juz glad tt i finally cleared things up..i shd haf done so frm such a long time ago but u need courage to broach any subj tt req clarifying..i rem last time i quarrelled w g in sec 1 n we neva cleared stuf up,it's juz buried..cos i din dare to. at least now i haf a much clearer view of how things actually r n not juz guessing n fitting things into my own perception,bcos i realised tt no matter how things look so much like wat u perceive, e truth can sometime turn out to b sth on e other extreme. if u apply dis to real life, u can't get wat u always want..live up to e disappointment n crap feeling..but u gotta get used to it!disappointment is part n parcel of life.

even if u get shit in life-SO WAT?there's pple out there worse den u..wat's impt is tt u gotta look at WAT U HAF N B CONTENTED N APPRECIATE WAT U HAF.contentment will lead u to find peace w urself..so i m trying to learn e art of tt..bcos after tokking to another fren, i realised tt i m really much better off so y e hell m i juz concentrating on wat's making me sad/irritated when there's so many gd things tt will make me happy?den i was reminded of a story tt a dj said..yup it'll b hard to b contented w wat u haf haha all humans r greedy but i will try..i wanna improve myself! :) make myself a better person so tt i can help my frens ard me n make em feel happy w their lives too..haha ya i maybe simple minded..tt fren who made me realise tt i shd b contented w wat i haf told me tt i can;t use naive to describe myself.."COS NAIVE IS RESERVED FOR PPLE WHO R CUTE N SWEET" %$^%^&*%^&(* thanx a lot ah! :P crapper haha!

yup i tink i've learnt a lot frm dis episode.i'm glad tt i've finally seen e rainbow n busking in e warm sunlight after e dark n cold storm n rain :) luckily i stopped myself in my tracks when i was feeling negative n doubtful of dis frenship.bcos now i m certain tt if i lose dis fren,life would neva b e same again :)

*problems can always b solved,it's juz a matter of how u look at it n whether u actually wanna make e effort to*